Here I am. Sitting in my room alone with candlelight and listening my favorite pieces of music and just thinking... Thinking how the hell did I get to this. With no vision of life and just living for a moment after moment with no expectations, hoping that there would come a day when I suddenly see the reason in all. Feel the power in me again. Know that I can DO something about something!!! But how to reach it? I soooooo want to feel that reason in me again! I even think I am ready to start kicking it off and be really living again, but where is the motivation in me for that? Even if I know it is my life and I have to live it the best way I can, I still know that one day I will fall again and be hurt again. Sounds stupid I guess... Of course, everyone falls sometimes... But I just hoped there would be at least one thing in my life I could depend on. But nothing really is...
