Hey there! It has been a really really long time since I`ve last written here anything. There have happened so many things in this period between then and now. It is almost incomprehensible how different things were then and how they are now. I have changed so much myself. I hate that it is so. I don`t like what I have become. Therefore the heading of the post - where has santasmile gone? Is she ever coming back? The old me... please come back ASAP.
Maybe we can think about who I was before? I wanted to write a long description here but I decided not to, as I think if anyone is reading this - you must have known me before, when I was still the 'santasmile'. I don`t really want to think about how to name me now, but I guess when this is over - the name will come up by itself.
The big question I am thinking about often is - why have I changed so much? And how much influence it has been from the people around me? Have I changed because of them or the other way around? Why the attitudes between people change so much?
